still early

heard from someone i once thought i cared about.  constructed a reply.  it's too early to send.  i would guess that i'm not giving the best possible testimony right now.  "cast all you care on him, because we know he cares for us".  the  new testament  i just stumble forward, knowing full well that things will get better. what If i cannot make the trip. it isnot absolutely essential.  i will try to make some progress this week.  i have my foot problem, and the downtown portland y to deal with.  i can't really domuch about the bus ticket until august 1.  it  will be a long hard ride. i will enjoy seeing biran and his family in nashville, and gerald o'grady in boston.  and cindy in portland.   it's important not to get to attached to any idea except jesus.  this weekend will be full.  the lecturer from wheaten illinois and my high school  reunion..  i know i can get through those, but not w/o spending some money.  that's part of my anxiety.  i have been offered some help.  i will probably have to take it when the time comes.