just woke up

woke up sick.  wandering in the bardo.   trying to find an ambulance for mother.  something about a board with a nail stuck in it...for mounting.  i go by the nursing home.  i  disguise myself as a patient.  walk out wrapped up in a blanket. walking on the southside, but maybe a different city.  end up on a one-way street.  pass a young man in a yard.  it seems dangerous.  a child leads me, shows me the way.  mother is dead.  it has been months.  i hardly seem able to deal with it.  am in a school.  lost.